Melissa Lorenzo

I couldn’t sleep last night. It seems that everything hits in the middle of the night. My mind plays back all the stupid little things that I easily blew off during the day. Of course, once I start thinking about everything, my feelings towards them intensify, tremendously! Then I wake up in the morning and the intensity has worn off. Now I am just pissed at myself for loosing sleeping and allowing stupid shit bother me.

It is amazing how our minds can run wild at 3 in the morning! (Note to self: Don’t send e-mails or texts during this time, wait until the morning when your clarity returns).

I am struggling to get the focus back that I had during my previous prep. I have been dieting for so long that I just really want to step back and enjoy life. The comfort of eating my prep foods is gone. After 4 competitions and 5 depletion’s in 8 months, my body and mind are fighting back. There is so much “noise” around me that it is blocking my ability to focus.

So the tornado of emotions I had in the middle of the night has cleared when I woke this morning. Talk about a shit storm!

It is time I take responsibility for my prep and step back into the zone that I have proven to work for me. I know what I need to do in order to get where I need to be.

We all know that people tend to gain a greater level of “self” when they compete. They forget how how to treat other people because they see themselves as greater. These are the traits of this sport that are ugly and really makes one less attractive. News Alert: Stepping on stage does not make you better than anyone else regardless of how you place. If you cannot lead in a positive way then your resume is like your beauty, superficial. Real beauty shines when you project and encourage others to better themselves.

Remember the bigger picture.